It's just one of those days again. It reminds me why I don't spend too much time at home. When I'm at home I think too much, especially when I'm cleaning. I decided to clean our bedroom today. That meant I had to organize all of my Kalyna things. I also put away all my maternity clothes. It all hurts. I don't think the pain will ever go away, but then do I really want it to go away? I want to remember my precious girl always. It's hard to create happy memories when you don't have any...but still I will remember her beautifulness and her preciousness.
I still have my little Micah running around, having conversations with me, with himself and with toys. He has quite the crazy imagination. Right now he is pretending to be sleeping on a chip closer clip pretending it's a bed. Then he pretended to jump on the bed, and then said "jump on bed then fall" - meaning if you jump on the bed you'll fall off...something we've told him. Oh he makes me laugh.
Just one of those bittersweet days.
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