Kalyna Leanne's Story

Let me tell you about our beautiful daughter Kalyna Leanne. Her story begins with my intense desire to be pregnant again after having miscarried with Jaimie. We were told to wait three months before we tried again to have a baby since my body needed time to heal and prepare again. Although I was tempted to try before that, we wanted the baby to have the best chance to make it, so we waited the full three months before trying again. Needless to say we were pregnant again near the end of October.  What wonderfulness, mixed with a lot of fear and apprehension. What happens if we lose this baby again...what will we do?? What will I do? I had to give my baby up to God; that whatever happens He would see us through. There was no way I would make it otherwise, I'd be a complete wreck worrying all the time. So I gave my baby to God knowing that He loves my baby more than I do, and no matter what I would trust Him and His plans.

Well little did I know how much I would need to do that. The pregnancy itself was rough. I had a subchorionic bleed at about 11 weeks - Christmas Day we ended up in emerg. Thankfully the baby still had a heart beat and all was good, but I was on bed rest for the next day. We eventually found out about the subchorionic bleed and I wasn't allowed to life Micah anymore. That was rough. I had to get really creative to even leave the house as I couldn't lift him into the car. Anyways, we made it through that part, and in the process had many many ultrasounds to check on things and how they were going. It was nice to get to see our little baby many times and to see her heart beating strong (we didn't know she was a girl at the time though).

I started going into labour early Tuesday morning, July 10th. They weren't very strong and were quite far apart. So I just went about my day normally thinking it was probably going to be awhile. My friend came over and we hung out around the house. I kept telling her how much the baby was moving, having the hiccups etc. The baby moved all morning and all afternoon until my friend left and then I laid down with Micah for a bit. I then did some cleaning up and realized I hadn't felt the baby move in a bit. I was doing the lying down and trying to count movements, but wasn't having any luck. I could usually poke and push a little and I would get some movement. By the time Albert was home I was worried and we headed to the hospital. It wasn't long before we were again hearing those words "the baby has no heartbeat". Complete devastation.

I think I was in shock most of that night as I lay awake in the hospital room while slowly being induced.

Our beautiful daughter Kalyna Leanne was born at 8:10am on July 11th. She was born completely wrapped up in the cord. The cord was believed to be the cause of death. How awful.

She weighed 7 pounds 14 ounces and was almost 22 inches long. She had dark curly hair a cute nose that looked like Micah's and long legs. She was so beautiful. We spent the day lovingly adoring our beautiful daughter while we held her and introduced her grandparents and uncle to her.
I love her name. Albert picked out her first name and her middle name is a combination of many members of our family. Kalyna means guelder rose and her middle name means meadow of Grace. I think it's so fitting that her name is Rose in the Meadow of Grace.
She is my sweet beautiful girl that I will remember forever and think of always. I will always picture her in Heaven with Jesus and look forward to the day when I will get to hold her again.

Kalyna Leanne

July 11 2012

Forever Loved

Forever Safe in the Arms of Jesus

 

 

I believe Kalyna's legacy is all that follows...