On a happier note...

So these days it seems like I'm expressing things better through writing than verbally - definitely going to have to try and change that. However, for now, getting some elation out in writing seems fairly appropriate!

So excited to join the staff at the church we attend. So thankful to be a part of something so wonderful. Excited to see how God uses me in this position. Ready to keep pushing all the fears behind me and be passionate about Kids and how God wants to work among them at our church. So blessed to have this opportunity to work among some amazing people and so honoured and humbled by the huge responsibility it is to ensure that our kids are learning about Jesus and learning how to be His servants into our community and world.

Elation #2! Getting our police checks done today! Happy dance! First time I've felt like dancing in a long time! So ready to drop off our completed paperwork tomorrow! Can't believe how happy and excited that makes me feel! I know this won't be an easy road, and it will be filled most likely with heartache and also a lot of love. However, we know that God has laid this on our hearts so strongly that He must have a plan in all of this and will give us the strength to live with any heartache (as He is doing now) and to open our hearts wide to any children He chooses to place in our lives -whether permanently or only for a time.
It's difficult because I don't want my joy to be wrapped up in kids. Yes kids bring a lot of joy, but my joy should be found in my salvation and other joy should flow through that. That is definitely something I need to continue to work on. Being joyful now.
However, I know that I do get excited when I am expecting a new child, and this is just like the beginning of a pregnancy...just don't know how long the pregnancy might be. But we are expecting....yes expecting....we don't know if it will be a boy or a girl, whether infant or toddler, whether one or two, whether forever or just for a time, whether it will be 6 months till we meet them or a year, or two, but we are expecting. Expecting - knowing that God holds all the details, and we will keep taking all the necessary steps as we continue to see His plan unfold.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you, and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."  ~Jeremiah 29:11~